Wasted


Selfie of me in a zoom waiting room.

"Not the fruit of experience, but experience itself, is the end... What we have to do is to be for ever curiously testing new opinions and courting new impressions, never acquiescing in a facile orthodoxy... Great passions may give us this quickened sense of life, ecstasy, sorrow of love."
-Walter Pater, Studies


Forever courting dopamine through faces,
changing my personality and going through phases,
a secure sense of self’s so close I can taste it,
I feel like nothing but a brain that’s been wasted.