Decaying (2024)


Picture of a cigarette in a heart shaped ashtray.

Click on the underlined text to see the meaning.


“I wanted little blue Amytal Sodium capsules, 200milligram-sized. I wanted red-and-blue Tuinal bullet capsules, lipstick-red Seconals.”
-Fight Club, Chuck Palahnuik


Other’s perceptions of who I am
will make me question who I am,

is well enough to make me
mix the Kratom and Meclizine,
looking like I’ve been decaying,

add weed and Hydroxyzine
just so that I am spacing,
just so my heart’s not racing.